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Existential Sex Therapy in Practice

The practice of sex therapy and psychotherapy can be done utilizing many different modes and theoretical orientations. Yalom reminds us that existential psychotherapy does not represent a standard set of techniques, styles, or protocols. The concepts of existential therapy can be best understood as a lens or guide by which psychotherapy is practiced. Practitioners of all theoretical philosophies can bring an existential perspective to their treatment process. 

When I treat my male sex therapy patients, I follow a similar pattern with all as a starting point. Whether I am treating an individual male or a couple, I like to begin by asking about what brings them in to see me and allow the story to unfold in whatever manner they choose. I am particularly interested in the description of the problem, the conditions under which the problem manifests itself, and the timeline regarding when the symptom first presented. My goal is to begin to get an understanding of the meaning and protective/adaptive purpose the sexual difficulty may represent. Typically, men will present with little to no insight as to the reason for their sexual shutdown. They often describe a generally satisfying relationship with a partner they find attractive. Most of the men I treat, especially those experiencing erectile difficulties, will report relative ease at attaining penile tumescence, and engorgement will be maintained through extended periods of sexual foreplay. But the erection fades as intercourse approaches or shortly after penetration occurs. Typically, these men reveal a current history of satisfying and frequent masturbation. They will often express a vague notion of being anxious about sexual function and a firm belief that their penile difficulties have some medical basis. However, they are at a loss to explain how a physical or medical issue allows for erections that are fully functional during masturbation but not penetrative sex. Their partners are similarly stymied. 

Following the initial consultation, I will focus on family and developmental history. If I’m treating a couple, I will ask to do three individual sessions with each before resuming couples’ work. It is important to me to develop a good understanding of each person’s experience in his or her family of origin and to identify any patterns of trauma that might be getting triggered in the current relationship. I want to learn about the personalities of family members, their relationship with each of them, and their relationship with each other. I want to know if this was a family that was able to communicate about and/or demonstrate emotions, or if theirs was a family of secrets and repressed suffering. I want to know if there was any presence of substance abuse or domestic violence and/or parental neglect/over-involvement. In essence, I am looking to gain an appreciation for any family dynamic that may have felt threatening that could be reenacting itself in the current relationship and, thereby, creating a threat to the man’s existence and well-being.

Many highly regarded sex therapists will spend a great deal of time taking an in-depth sexual history. I do not, as I find much of the information in a standard sex history to be irrelevant, particularly in those men who have had a prior history of good sexual functioning. Through an existential lens, the sexual “problem” is often not about how the man feels about sex per se. The sexual problem is more typically understood as an attempt for the man’s penis to communicate some deep anxiety, concern, and existential threat to his existence. Therefore, to more fully comprehend the message the penis is sending, a comprehensive developmental/family-of-origin/ relational history will be of greater value. Let’s consider the case of Russ from the perspective of an existentially oriented sex therapist. 

The Case of Russ

Fifty-one-year-old Russ came to see me shortly after his wedding to Sarah. This was a first marriage for Russ and the second for Sarah. Both had come from traumatic families of origin, and Sarah’s first marriage was to a man who regularly abused her. Russ’s primary complaint was a lifelong inability to ejaculate. I began by asking Russ for a timeline regarding his ejaculatory difficulties. I have found that the time of onset of problematic sexual symptoms is often of great significance in understanding what may be triggering the current inhibition. While most men presenting with this complaint have their ejaculatory difficulty limited to their time with a partner and have little to no difficulty ejaculating during masturbation, Russ reported that Sarah was his first sexual partner, and ejaculation during masturbation was problematic as well, although it would occur on occasion. Given the unusualness of this situation, I asked if Russ had consulted a urologist or other physician, and he indicated that it was his urologist who provided him the referral to me. His urologist did not detect any medical explanation for Russ’s ejaculation problem. 

We next began to talk about Russ’s upbringing and family of origin. Russ came from a family with two professionally educated parents, both of whom enjoyed great professional success and respect. They also were rather puritanical and punitive. Russ was the oldest of four children, and the siblings all have minimal interaction with each other. Despite the fine professional reputation his parents possessed, Russ recalls them as constantly fighting, explosively angry, sleeping in separate rooms, engaging in multiple infidelities, and hardly being civil to each other. Neither had much to do with the children, his father due to excessive alcohol use and his mother using her work to avoid being at home. He recalls his mother telling him in a fit of rage that she never wanted to be a mother and blamed his father for forcing parenthood on her.

Russ also reported that laughter, enjoyment, and pleasure were not only absent in his home but were considered sinful and to be averted at all costs. Any expressions of joy were severely reprimanded and punished. As a result, Russ learned as a young boy to repress any feelings or demonstrations of delight, joyfulness, and pleasure. He recalled that to the present day, if he is enjoying a television show or a musical piece, he will turn it off. He does not enjoy comedians or most other forms of entertainment. His free time is spent reading serious, nonfiction books and tinkering with electronic devices. Regarding the specifics of sex, he reports a strong libido and easy arousal, but he begins to panic as he approaches ejaculation and, thus, ceases all stimulation. In addition to shutting down all sensations of pleasure, Russ reports learning to be exquisitely attuned to the displeasure of his parents. He was constantly scanning the home environment to head off any actions or commotions that would rouse the ire of his chronically unhappy and volatile parents. Russ grew up a very lonely child. Despite having three siblings, the home was minimally interactive, and Russ did all he could to avoid other family members. He spent a great deal of time alone in his bedroom or in the local branch library. He recalls few friendships with schoolmates, as his parents discouraged such contacts. His activities were primarily solo, and this pattern continued through college and his career. In high school, Russ discovered a love of the sciences, and he decided to pursue a career in medicine. While he enjoyed his studies, he found his clinical rotations to be laborious. For a time, Russ thought he had made a poor career choice until he discovered the field of pathology. Pathology afforded him the solitude he found comforting as well as the opportunity to pursue his interest in lab sciences. In addition, being a pathologist required minimal interaction with colleagues, offered steady, predictable hours, and relieved Russ of the burden of having to deal directly with patients. He had a reputation at work as a hardworking and dependable physician but also as a loner who showed little interest in the lives of his co-workers. Oddly, his workplace was where he met the person who would dramatically alter his life’s course, Sarah.

Sarah was a pathologist in the same lab as Russ. She was also a serious- minded and reserved person, but she was more social and outgoing than was Russ. She found Russ to be appealing for several reasons. She liked that he was smart, hardworking, and seemingly uninterested in office gossip and politics. She also discovered Russ’s dry, witty sense of humor as being particularly self-effacing and clever. She decided to ask him to join her for dinner one evening, and Russ, to his surprise, accepted.

Russ did not date and reports no prior relationships before meeting Sarah. He was quite taken aback when Sarah invited him to dinner, as no other women had ever pursued him. He liked Sarah, thought she was beautiful, and found her laugh to be quite charming. She always seemed to genuinely enjoy her conversations with him, and this was a most unfamiliar experience. Russ recalls being nervous before the date but also excited to go. He reported they had a surprisingly nice evening, and he felt a lightness that was both strange and pleasing. He very much wanted to continue dating Sarah. Fortunately, Sarah, too, recalled enjoying her evening with Russ, and the two began to spend a considerable amount of nonworking time together. Sex proceeded slowly, which was fine for them both. Russ was unable to ejaculate during intercourse and soon began to develop erectile difficulties. Russ found erections fairly easy to achieve and maintain until it was time for vaginal penetration. Russ would then begin to lose tumescence. Sarah was unflustered and patient, but Russ was frustrated. He wanted to be able to fully experience sex with Sarah, mostly because he did not want her to feel bad or worry that he wasn’t attracted to/interested in her.

It seemed readily apparent to me that Russ’s traumatic upbringing was affecting his sexual functioning. His penis was speaking to him and cautioning him against allowing himself to be vulnerable to others. We spent a good deal of time discussing his family of origin and how his penis might be trying to send him a message of prudence. Existentially, Russ suffered from fears of mortality and isolation. Specifically, Russ found his existence threatened by his feelings of vulnerability with Sarah. His past relationships with family left him vigilant against allowing others to get close and potentially harm him. He had spent most of his life as a loner, and this allowed him to feel protected and safe. However, meeting Sarah made him aware of the depth of his loneliness, and he longed for companionship and love. While his conscious mind was telling him how wonderful life with Sarah would be, his protective unconscious was alerting him to the peril and fragility of his existence should he allow himself to be exposed and laid bare to another. The threat of hurt, rejection, and grief was palpable as Russ continued to deepen his affection and connection to Sarah.

In addition to the threat of annihilation, Russ also was becoming increasingly aware of his isolation from self. His perpetual scanning of his childhood home environment and vigilance for any signs of upset from his parents made him unaware of what his own needs were. That, combined with the family’s disdain for anything pleasurable, left Russ in a constant state of anxiety during partnered sex. When in sexual situations with Sarah, Russ was so preoccupied with whether Sarah was responding positively that he was oblivious to his own sense of sexual arousal. Psychotherapy focused on Russ allowing himself to become comfortable with experiencing nonsexual pleasure and then moving to sexual pleasure during solo masturbation. A combination of dealing with the trauma of his childhood environment along with some directed behavioral suggestions allowed this to be accomplished over a period of several months.

Allowing himself to ejaculate during his time with Sarah proved more challenging, and improvements came about in small, inconsistent increments. Russ’s ability to fully let go when in the presence of another was (not surprisingly) difficult to overcome. Russ’s childhood home taught him to self-protectively be on guard against the ire of his warring parents. Hypervigilance in the presence of others became his lifelong strategy for survival. Overcoming the trauma of his childhood took considerable work in psychotherapy, but eventually, Russ was able to ejaculate in Sarah’s presence. First, he was able to ejaculate in her presence via solo masturbation. This then progressed to Sarah being able to bring Russ to ejaculation using her hand, and eventually, Russ was able to ejaculate during sexual intercourse. Each of these successive advances occurred inconsistently for quite some time but gradually became easier and easier to achieve. During times of emotional stress/dysregulation on either of their parts, Russ will regress, but such regressions are temporary and typically resolve in a matter of days to weeks. Both Russ and Sarah are pleased with their movement, and treatment is ongoing.

Russ and Sarah’s story illustrates many of the seminal points in existential sex therapy. Note the existential concerns of a threatened existence and the penis speaking through a self-protective shutdown of sexual functioning. Russ feared his existence would be snuffed out if he allowed himself to be emotionally close to Sarah or allow himself to feel joy/ pleasure. In addition, Russ became increasingly aware of his isolation from himself. When with Sarah, he was so consumed with scanning her reactions that he completely lost sight of his own desires. Russ’s anxiety about displeasing another meant that the only time he felt sexually comfortable was during solo sexual activity, when he could focus exclusively on himself with no distraction.

Russ was a man who was deeply untrusting of others, and this, along with his isolation from self, negatively affected his budding relationship with Sarah. While what makes psychotherapy work is always somewhat mysterious, it seems clear to me that a significant aspect of Russ’s improvement was the quality of the therapeutic relationship built between the two of us. Over time, Russ came to trust that my interest in him and his well-being was genuine. As his comfort with me increased, Russ was able to take more risks in therapy and reveal more and more of himself. In addition, he was able to venture into unexplored territory as he began to learn more about himself, his feelings, his fears, and his desires. Existential sex therapy, like existential psychotherapy, is rooted in the depth of the therapeutic relationship. The elements of connection, genuineness, compassion, and safety are the most potent tools available to the practicing sex therapist.

I am often asked if behavioral sex therapy exercises have a place in existential sex therapy. While I tend to use them sparingly, they certainly have an important place in providing some immediate relief of symptoms and encouraging patients to take risks and move forward. However, I believe that a therapy that was primarily based in behavioral exercises would have been ultimately ineffective for Russ. Russ had suffered so much damage from his family of origin that without doing deep trauma work with an existential lens, he would not have allowed himself to move toward tolerating the experience of pleasure. In addition, exercises that focused directly on the functioning of his penis would have been of little value until Russ better understood the messages of anxiety and trauma being communicated to him through his penis. Frankl’s process of dereflection allowed Russ to focus on triggering of childhood trauma and allow his protective unconscious to loosen its grip. Still, behavioral suggestions clearly had a place in Russ’s treatment, as merely working through the trauma of childhood would not have given him the sexual skills he required. I am often reminded of one of Yalom’s most important axioms: “Insight without action is merely interesting.” All good therapy needs to move the patient beyond the point of insight to take the necessary emotional risks to make use of such insights and awarenesses. As a result, even though the bulk of my therapy focuses on deep reflection and insight to assist the man in better understanding the message his penis is sending him, I often find behavioral exercises or suggestions to be of great value.

Let’s examine another case that illustrates the principles and process of existential sex therapy. 

The Case of Ascher

Ascher was a 44-year-old man who had been married for 21 years to Marcie. Both reported a generally satisfying relationship that had recently become distressed due to Marcie’s discovery of Asher’s many infidelities. Ascher admitted to frequent use of pornography, chatrooms, and sex workers. Marcie discovered Ascher’s transgressions after being diagnosed with a sexually transmitted infection at a routine GYN exam. 

Both Ascher and Marcie were religiously observant, and sexual intercourse was not attempted until after marriage. Sex seemed to proceed smoothly with little complication for the first 12 to 24 months of marriage. Both reported a high level of sexual satisfaction during this time. However, Ascher began to pull away from Marcie sexually, and their sexual frequency quickly diminished. When Marcie questioned Ascher about his apparent sexual avoidance, he offered some vague explanations and vowed to increase the frequency of his sexual initiations. Ascher did begin to initiate sex more often, but then he often would experience erectile loss just prior to vaginal penetration. Both Ascher and Marcie found this distressing, but Ascher was reluctant to consult his physician and instead just drifted further away from Marcie sexually. Marcie was troubled by Ascher’s lack of interest in pursuing an answer to this conundrum, and the two began to fight repeatedly. It was later discovered that Ascher’s reluctance to consult his physician was due to his awareness that his erectile difficulties did not occur during solo masturbation or inter- actions with sex workers. Had Marcie not been diagnosed with an STI, this cycle of sexual avoidance may have continued indefinitely, as divorce was not a consideration for either of them.

Ascher agreed to begin psychotherapy and consulted a “sex addiction specialist.” Sex addiction therapy proceeded for about a year, but improvement was minimal. Therapy focused primarily on behavioral interventions designed to control Ascher’s urges to sexually “act out,” as well as regular attendance at a 12-step sex addiction group. Ascher reported enjoying both the individual therapy and the group meetings and found the support he received from both to be very meaningful. However, Ascher felt that his issues were not being adequately identified and addressed, and change was negligible. Both Ascher and Marcie were frustrated by the lack of progress, and they were referred to me for an alternative approach to the problem.

My initial meeting was with both Ascher and Marcie, but their wish was for Ascher to receive individual psychotherapy. Marcie attended the session to be supportive and offer to be helpful in any way she was needed. However, Ascher felt he needed to “confront his inner demons” and wanted to do this via individual treatment. I agreed, as I thought Ascher’s difficulties preceded and were separate from his relationship with Marcie, and we agreed to begin individual therapy with the idea of bringing Marcie into the therapy at a later point if necessary.

Ascher and I began by discussing the onset of his problematic behavior. He reported that he had never felt sexually conflicted or compulsive prior to his marriage to Marcie. He reported loving Marcie and thought she was an outstanding wife, mother, and friend. He found his behavior puzzling, as he found her sexually attractive and enjoyed sex with her greatly. We also discussed his prior psychotherapy and what he found helpful and not helpful about it. Ascher recalled liking his therapist and felt great relief at being able to discuss what he had been keeping hidden for so long. He also enjoyed the support and camaraderie of the 12-step group but had a nagging sense that as inconceivable as it was to him, his problem was not really about sex, which was the sole focus of his prior therapy and the 12-step group. I asked him if his problem was not about sex, what did he think it was about, but he had no answer and found his situation to be quite puzzling.

We next began to talk about Ascher’s family of origin and childhood memories. Ascher was the oldest of five boys born to a religiously observant mother and father. He reports a generally happy home environment in which the laws and rituals of Judaism were practiced, celebrated, and enforced. Ascher was educated in Jewish day schools, where he received both secular and nonsecular education. He recalls enjoying school and being a very good and popular student. Ascher was very much committed to his religious teachings and practices but recollects always fighting a desire to rebel. He didn’t mind or object to any of his religious obligations but always felt an objection to being “controlled.” Ascher described himself as being an intensely curious youngster who frequently questioned the absoluteness of rabbinic authority and wanted to know what the “forbidden” experiences would be like. He had questions about the laws of kashrut (the requirement to keep a kosher diet) and often felt a strong urge to sample non-kosher food and, on occasion, did secretly indulge. As an adolescent, Ascher experienced the expected sexual urges and desires and would occasionally allow himself to masturbate. These transgressions left him feeling guilty but pleased by his displays of autonomy and independence. Again, it was not that Ascher felt forced into a life of religious observance that he did not want, but Ascher abjured feeling controlled, stifled, and limited.

Ascher reported that while he was eager to marry Marcie, he felt rather quickly like marriage was “suffocating.” This feeling was quite surprising to him, since he believed he enjoyed being with Marcie a great deal. Nevertheless, marriage quickly felt confining, limiting, and controlling. Since Ascher did not engage in premarital sex, he did not know how he would have behaved sexually in another relationship with someone besides Marcie, but he suspects he may have felt suffocated in any relationship that removed his ability to feel as if he had choices.

It was becoming increasingly clear that Ascher was reacting to feelings of being controlled (losing his autonomy) and suffocated. Existentially, this would correspond to Yalom’s dilemmas of freedom and mortality. Ascher’s problematic sexual behavior was likely his response to these internal and unacknowledged conflicts, much like his desire to sneak non-kosher foods when a young boy.

When I mentioned this to Ascher, he responded immediately and enthusiastically that this conceptualization resonated strongly. Ascher then described the strong obligation he felt to not disappoint his parents or to be a poor role model for his brothers. Throughout his life, he felt both proud of and burdened with these responsibilities. The combination of family and religious obligation often made Ascher feel as if his life was not his own, and he struggled with his desires for freedom and autonomy against the perceived constraints imbedded in so much of his life. He reported never having expressed these feelings to anyone before, and this was never explored in his prior therapy. As our discussion continued over the weeks and months, it became increasingly clear to Ascher why he was behaving as he was, and he felt that now that he had a substantially greater insight into the meaning behind his actions, he would have an easier time dealing with them. It was now time to ask Marcie to rejoin the therapy.

Marcie was pleased to participate in the therapy, and she had been doing important work on herself in individual therapy. She reported being pleased with Ascher’s new understandings and insights but found herself struggling with issues of trust. Her existence now also felt threatened, as she saw Ascher as not only someone she loved but also as someone who had the ability to do her great harm and destroy the life that she loved. It was determined that they would be best served by another psychotherapist for couples’ therapy, since Ascher wished to continue his individual therapy and growth with me. Both Ascher and Marcie agreed that this was the best way to go, and I referred them to one of my colleagues who did couples’ work. At the time of this writing, Ascher continues a productive individual psychotherapy with me, and the two of them are doing well in couples’ therapy, having recently begun resuming their sexual relationship.

The case of Ascher again highlights how the penis speaks for distressed men. Ascher shut down sexually when he began feeling suffocated and constrained. First, he pulled away sexually from Marcie. This was of great concern for her, and she began to push Ascher for an explanation. Since Ascher felt unable to express his feelings for fear of acknowledging his “less than pure” urges, he subordinated his emotions and tried to bypass them. He then tried to accede to Marcie’s wishes and continue to interact sexually with her, but his protective unconscious would not let his penis function, and the sexual shutdown took a much harder-to-explain path. All of this was further complicated by Ascher’s frequent use of pornography and sex workers. These outlets, while making Ascher feel extremely guilty, also provided him with the “reassurance” that he was not being controlled and still possessed the autonomy to rebel against expectations. Given the internal conflicts Ascher was battling, it is little wonder that a therapy primarily focused on behavioral exercises designed to increase sexual interest and improve erectile functioning fell short. Ascher’s protective unconscious would thwart all efforts to move into territory that created an existential threat to him. Until those unacknowledged and unexpressed conflicts had been exposed, Ascher was unable to understand, and therefore change, any of his problematic behaviors.

Oftentimes, behavioral sex therapy’s treatment failures alert us to the possibility that something else is going on, and it is in these cases that an exploration of existential issues may be most helpful. In the case of Ascher and Marcie, we see that once again, the penis speaks and, according to well-known psychologist and sex therapist Kathryn S.K. Hall [with whom I had personal communication, sometimes it yells!

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In this chapter, we have explored many of the most salient features of existential sex therapy and how sex therapy with an existential lens differs from most traditional forms of sex therapy. Ascher’s case provides us with an excellent transition to our next chapter, hypersexuality, or what is often referred to as sex addiction. Many of the patients we see in sex therapy practice are not suffering from a sexual shutdown but what appears to be quite the opposite — a pattern of sexual behavior that they find difficult to control and manage. The existential issues in cases of hypersexuality are often most closely aligned with fears of death and mortality. Let&